You had held my hand for approximately three hours; walking in, and sitting in the dark with your face lit in a subtle orange from the man on screen’s t-shirt. I framed the ticket, but now the beginning twinkle of that song from the soundtrack that we would duet in the car, it hurts. I turn it off. You took it from me, along with that dress with daisies on it, four friends, Halloween, and red lipstick. I had wanted to share with you, found joy in merging lives as I found joy in interlocking fingers like that. But everything swapped hands, and you walked away. Stevie Nicks sang about The Dealer, but I couldn’t listen to her either, she sounded like the Tuesday you taught me to use your record player, how we loved that breakup album. I didn’t listen till December. Long after you left I was still skipping songs for you, running from you in radio, cutting my hair, throwing out clothes. I never watched the film again.


Intro : Lucy Rose
See you fall : How To Dress Well
Our love : Sharon Van Etten
Cherry : Lana Del Rey
Taking pictures of you : The Kooks
Paris summer : The Last Shadow Puppets
Is this what you wanted : Leonard Cohen
Think of England : Bear’s Den
Saw you in a dream : The Japanese House
River : Leon Bridges
Hollywood forever cemetery sings : Father John Misty
What once was : Her’s
A case of you : Joni Mitchell
Each time you fall in love : Cigarettes After Sex
Hard feelings / Loveless : Lorde
Alaska {acoustic} : Maggie Rogers
Night so long : HAIM
Love can’t stand alone : Bear’s Den
Strangest thing : The War On Drugs
White lie : The Lumineers
The I love you bridge : The Crookes
Any movement : D.I.D
My door is always open : Noah and The Whale
The moon song : Karen O
Landslide : Fleetwood Mac
With him : Blood Orange

By Lucy Harbron